A tip for house repair.. [May 16, 2008 @ 3:45pm] sci [ mood | annoyed ] Do NOT attach permanent features on top of temporary ones. Mum's nailed the skirting board down on top of the carpet. I've stopped caring about most of the details now, as the demands that have been made mean that it's never going to be done properly anyway now. But this means the skirting board's a good couple of centimetres higher than it should be. So now the fascias for the plug sockets won't clear it. So they can't be fixed to the backboxes. Comment

[May 16, 2008 @ 5:29am] singedorchid [ mood | exhausted ]   I'm so old. I'm going to be 23 this year and I feel like I'm turning 50. I wish I could go back to how I felt when I a little kid, you really don't realize just how good you have it until you that's over and you move out and you have to support yourself. Oh, not to mention a kid you didn't even know you had. The last time I felt that happy and carefree as if I were back in childhood was when I used to smoke dope. But that stuff has given me more problem than I ever care to count. I wish for an entire week I could just stop the world, and do whatever I wanted. I wouldn't go to work, I wouldn't go to school and my daughter would sleep peaceful and undisturbed for 7 days while I just did what I wanted. Which would most likely consist of sleeping for 7 days straight along with my kid so my week of undisturbed bliss would probably be uneventful. I complain a lot about my life. More than anything I'm just tired of having to ALWAYS be on top of everything. What's more, my daughter is now at that age where she wants to try EVERYTHING  i.e dance, sports, girl scouts, music...everything. Which is great, I hate to say no when she expresses an interest in anything but then I have to make time for it and plan it around all the things I have to do. And if I say no I feel guilty, what if my kid grows up and slings crack and goes to jail just beacause I didn't let her join the girl scout troop? That merit badge might have made the difference. But it's just as well I guess, I would rather her be doing activities that she likes like tap (I really ought to put a video on here it's the cutest thing in the world, and she sucks at it but she's 5 so I guess it's okay) Than having her in day care. All these classes are so damn expensive but I'd be paying just as much for childcare provider who would probably let my daughter run wild and drink Kool Aid and eat popcorn all day and watch TV all day. Day care is so expensive, I now see why a lot of woman stay home with their children, why go out and get a job if half of your day goes to day care? You might as well just stay home.... I think I'm at the point where I need to read a childrearing book, I seem to have hit a wall with Fawn. Disciplining her has become a lot more difficult, she no longer heeds my threats. She has now caught on that daddy will not throw her out the window if she does not stop jumping on the bed, so now she just laughs at me. Speaking of bed, I can't get that kid OUT of my bed, I don't let her sleep in my bed, but she now is sneaking in with me because of nightmares. Being a dad is hard, I give up. I'm just going to close my eyes and wait for her to turn 18 and get the hell out of my house... Read (1) Comment

twitter feed [May 16, 2008 @ 12:09am] _kudzu_ ( Today's Twitter posts... ) Comment

Your government at work [May 16, 2008 @ 12:02am] p_t_s_d [novanglus] "Given that we are having more and more compensation seeking veterans, I'd like to suggest that we refrain from giving a diagnosis of PTSD straight out. Consider a diagnosis of Adjustment Disorder, R/O PTSD," the e-mail said. It also said, "Additionally, we really don't or have time to do the extensive testing that should be done to determine PTSD." Read (1) Comment

On storms and pills [May 15, 2008 @ 8:56pm] ludwigvan_tx We got hit by a nasty storm last night. South Austin wasn't hit quite as bad as up north - winds of up to 60 mph (96 km/h) and baseball-sized hail and bigger. There was one fatality and a lot of damage, but certain other parts of the country have had it far worse as of late. I'm finally getting around to reading the Masnavi of Rumi, which I've been trying to get myself to start for years. Reading can make me really tired. My new psychiatrist put me on Cymbalta, an antidepressant I've tried before. I'm only taking the lower dose of 30 mg/day to be safe; I was taking 60 last time and it was causing some problems. There are a few side effects I'd like to do without, like insomnia and jitteriness, but I think it's helping. I'm not as angry, panicky and generally emo as I was before at least. When not manic, I have so-called atypical depression, which manifests itself not so much in sadness as it does in irritability. I can also do have increased appetite and hypersomnia. I have had melancholic depression, the kind where you're constantly sad and don't want to eat or sleep. I don't miss it one bit. The majority of my depression is still caused by a lack of mobility and ability to do a lot of things, only made worse by a lack of social contact. Read (1) Comment

twitter [May 15, 2008 @ 5:13pm] _kudzu_ I hate Voicemail because it has some sense of urgency in my mind. Like, I can't do anything else until I've listened to it, and once I've listened to it, I feel like I can't do anything else until I've returned the call. For the same reason, I like LiveJournal much more than e-mail. It removes the imperitive to reply from the people to whom I'm broadcasting my ramblings. I can blabber as often or as much as I like, and if people don't want to read it, they won't, wheras I'd feel guilty if I bombarded all of you with as many e-mails per day. I also dislike Instant Messenger programs since they always leap onto my screen when I'm busy. So, I broke down and got myself a Twitter account. Just like LiveJournal has filled a void where pointless e-mails would be, I think Twitter will be a welcome Instant Messenger substitute. Also, I might allow myself to spend some money on some text messages to update y'all whilst I don't have Internet. Believe it or not, I just sent my very first text message ever in order to set it up. Hopefully, If I set up LoudTwitter correctly, it will dump a daily digest of my Twitters right here to this blog. So you don't have to actually look at my Twitter page or subscribe to "follow" me unless you really want up-to-the-minute updates. However, I would like it if you could reply to this post if you have your own Twitter account. Read (1) Comment

More commission sales [May 15, 2008 @ 7:14pm] sci 11 items of decorative Wedgewood Kutani Crane tableware 4 items of Whitefriars glassware, vase, fruitbowl 2 items Denby Greenwheat gravy boat, saucer, coffee pot 7 item silver plated tableware candle wine serving dish Read (7) Comment

[May 15, 2008 @ 10:46am] _kudzu_ Ass-early in the morning, Yale wakes my husband and I up with a phone call. Joan: "So, I guess you missed the flight." Me: "WHAT?" Joan: "It was last night." Me: "No! We've been planning the 15th for weeks! I have an itinerary!" Joan: "Oh? Are you looking at it?" Me: "Lemmie' see, I'm in bed... Yeah, Thursday the 15th." Joan: "Oh, okay, sorry. See you tomorrow." Shit, I hope they fire electromagnetic waves at brains better than they plan trips. ( Itinerary, for anyone who cares... ) Read (5) Comment

Lost for words [May 15, 2008 @ 4:45pm] sci Read (1) Comment

Half asleep [May 15, 2008 @ 9:01am] ludwigvan_tx You know what it's like when you're dozing off, but you don't quite fall asleep? You're conscious, or at least semi-conscious, but you start dreaming at the same time. Or your mind starts going on its own; you start thinking thoughts that may or may not make sense, but when you're fully awake, you forget what was going through your mind. I wish I knew how to put myself in a half-awake, half-asleep state and stay there for a while. I'd imagine it would be similar to having a vivid hallucination, so it might be risky if the "dream" thoughts become disturbing. I wonder if it would be closer to a trance state, or lucid dreaming (that's when you're asleep, but your'e aware you're dreaming and you have a degree of control over the dream). I would also be less self-conscious and afraid, which could also be risky, if I think I can wrestle cars on I-35 or something. Comment

Gardening advice please! [May 15, 2008 @ 2:06pm] sci Okay, finally have the padlock code to get into the allotment again! It's getting late in the year now though. so, what can I still do to get the place back in order quickly? What should be doing/planting over the next few weeks? HELP! Read (2) Comment

OMFG!!!! [May 15, 2008 @ 8:45am] lanikei For the last decade, Celtic punk rock band Dropkick Murphys have stayed at the forefront of the modern punk scene. After releasing their major label debut, The Meanest of Times, late last year, the band is teaming up with recently reunited seminal ska punk group The Might Mighty Bosstones for a massive show at Merriweather Post Pavilion this summer. Kilts and plaid are optional, but a hunger for great punk is a must. DROPKICK MURPHYS & THE MIGHTY MIGHTY BOSSTONES @ Merriweather Post Pavilion • Columbia, MD July 9 5:30pm Gates WHO ELSE WANTS TO GO!?!?!??! Also: Sa 8/16 The Faint 8pm Doors. On Sale Saturday, May 17 at 10am (930 club) I'll be there too, unless I'm in San Diego. FUCK. I am unfairly tempted by today's shirt.woot. Or maybe I'm just really hungry... Read (2) Comment

Todays feeds [May 15, 2008 @ 1:39pm] sci Vatican says aliens could exist 'My daughter deserved to die for falling in love' Some Detainees Are Drugged For Deportation Bush says gave up golf in solidarity with Iraq dead Read (2) Comment

Selling knitting? [May 15, 2008 @ 8:40am] caligatia Something occurred to me while talking to Devi the other night. I'd been thinking that "knitting for money" meant taking orders and knitting custom stuff. But what if I just knit what I felt like knitting and then put the results up on Etsy for sale? Then I wouldn't have to worry about pleasing customers or meeting deadlines. So -- can I get ideas from y'all on what kind of small things would be cool to sell? From what I understand I'll pretty much have to make up my own patterns, because of pattern copyright issues. Which is fine with me. I enjoy designing. I'm thinking hats, socks, scarves, mittens and gloves, and maybe trying my hand at some weird little knitted toys. As I mentioned, I have two pairs of socks in progress, and I think both of them may go on Etsy. They're not really to my taste, although they're nice looking. I need to do some research into pricing. I'm not charging less than $30 for them... Read (2) Comment

It's not mania. [May 15, 2008 @ 6:39am] ludwigvan_tx But it does consist of restlessness, racing thoughts and an inability to stop what I'm doing and GO TO SLEEP. My sleep schedule is all wrong again. I've spent all night studying, since I'm addicted to learning. I forgot to eat, and felt the effects of low blood sugar. I also have anger and resentment which I wish I didn't have. I got to thinking the world is against me, that because I have a so-called "disability" and a tendency towards nonconformity and eccentricity, it makes me unworthy of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. And there is that temptation to get mad at God. I really feel frustrated at not being able to succeed in something. I'm also sick of being alone. I haven't had much luck with marriage and relationships either. I honestly don't know what to do in such situations, or I don't feel like it anyway. I may be an intellectual genius, but I'm still a social moron. It's definitely not mania of the typical sort. I'm still depressed, or maybe it's dysphoric mania, a type of mixed state. Comment

[May 15, 2008 @ 11:26am] sci I'm rather disconcerted right now. I'm used to the house shaking a little bit when a car goes by outside. Well, anything a small truck and above really. It's because we're on the end of the terrace of houses and the road outside is the bottom of the dip. Might also have something to do with ground tension, also being next to the river. Over the past few weeks though I've been noticing a lot more of these brief shakes, but when no car is going past. It's both disconcerting and worrying. I've been in my room when both of the recent earthquakes have hit the UK, and while those have lasted longer, the amplitude is about the same. Being at the top of the house, it probably amplifies the effect of ground motion. I wish I knew what was causing it. Read (5) Comment

A fellow traveller [May 15, 2008 @ 2:42am] ludwigvan_tx I highly recommend this blog. Liz Spikol is an editor for the Philadelphia Weekly (and a former UT-Austin student) who writes on her own struggle with bipolar disorder, surviving ECT, health policy, politics and her Jewish family. She was recently written about in an article HuffPo, which includes a video introduction. Comment

[May 14, 2008 @ 10:12pm] _kudzu_ Oh yeah, and I passed the PartyLite challenge of holding my first six shows in "two weeks" (they marked my start date as May 1st, so I got let off easy). So PartyLite lady is a zany scheme that worked out well. I am packing for my trip tomorrow night. One tiny bag with all my stuff and one enormous piece of luggage full of all my yarn and knitting equipment! Read (2) Comment

A Letter [May 14, 2008 @ 2:29pm] wondrous2 [ mood | sleepy ] Dear Universe, ( Hey, it's me again... ) Read (3) Comment

update change went b10nd 1ast year but n0w back t0dark [May 14, 2008 @ 8:42pm] nocturnal_fears Comment

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